posting, deleting and reading

   Yesterday afternoon I posted something that had been bothering me and after I posted it I realized maybe I wasn't ready to share all of that with everyone so I deleted my post this morning. I would however like to share a shorter version of what was bothering me right here in this post.
   I have 3 sons and a step son, no daughters. I wanted a little girl with my last pregnancy but it just wasn't meant to be. I am however very blessed to have beautiful healthy boys. When I was pregnant with my youngest son, my husband and I picked out what we felt was the perfect little girl name. It meant a lot to us because it included my husband's mother's name. Obviously we did not get to use that name because we had a boy. A friend of mine is pregnant and a few months ago we were talking about baby names and I told her what we would have named our daughter if we had one and why that name meant so much to us. After a few weeks of going through names she informed me that they were naming their daughter, you guessed it, the name I had told her about. Now I understand that I have no use for or any claim to that name but it does bother me that they are using it. Is it selfish to wish they would pick another name? Probably! But guess what I really wish they would pick another name. I'm not sure if it is so much the name or the fact that I know I will never have a little girl to give that name to that is bothering me the most, either way it is out of my hands and I am done posting about it.
   Moving on now, I started reading "the secret life of Damion Spinelli" and I am really hoping it gets better as I read more of it. I am finding it hard to continue reading it, it is a good read if you don't watch GH, but since i do watch it I am already very familiar with the characters on the show and the dialog they give them in the book so far does not fit the characters I am used to watching on TV so I am finding it hard to really get into the book. I will however continue to read it and finish it and hopefully be able to give a better review when I am done.
   Well that is all for now, so as always I hope everyone has a great day!